grandpa.
As i’m writing this, it is the 27th of December, in the year 2005. It hasn’t been a very good day. Around 4:45pm, my grandmother called to let us know that my grandfather, her husband has died. I don’t really want to blame anybody for this, but it’s hard not to blame the insurance company who forced him out of the hospital, and regular care onto a bed sitting in his living room with only my grandmother to watch him.
When it came time to go to grandma’s house, I declined invite. it’s not that I don’t care, It’s that I just can’t handle seeing him like that.
It’s now 8:53pm, parents have been gone for about 4 hours, I haven’t ate dinner, i’m feeling pretty miserable. I have some vodka sitting away in my room, and i’m considering drinking it to help me deal with the depression.
I’ll probably stay away from the alcohol. Last thing I’d want to do is bring on that kind of dependency onto my life. I’m wondering when the funeral will be. Does my suit still fit? It’s been a few years since I wore it… oivay.
That’s always a tough time, Mikey.
Good for you, not drinking. That wouldn’t have helped.
The pain lessons with time. But, that don’t help much now.
Just try to be there for mom.
Comment by SoftWareRevue — Wed, Dec 28th, 2005 @ 2:47 pm
My prayers for your family at this time Mikey.
The passing of my grandfather was very hard.
When the pain fades you are left the fragments and jewels of a sparkling life.
Comment by Odd Fact — Sun, Jan 1st, 2006 @ 12:38 am
I remember when my grandfather died in December, 2004. It was quite a shock, but as he was 93, it wasn’t all that unexpected. Still, it was quite saddening, and even moreso was observing my mom, who had then lost both of her parents. Then, as isn’t that uncommon, my mom and her sisters were blaming the nurses at the hospital for giving him “too much morphine,” which he didn’t want. He was an orthopedic surgeon in his earlier years, so I guess he was quite familiar with the clouding effects of morphine. Quite a rough time that was… just look forward to better times.
Comment by robertgeller — Sat, Jan 7th, 2006 @ 8:07 pm