[23:07] Ralph: well i finally had a kid..again..everything is going rather well
[23:07] Mikey: hahaha
[23:08] Mikey: so you have 3 now?
[23:08] Ralph: no..just 2
[23:08] Mikey: you sure do ruin a lot of lives
[23:08] Mikey: were they both with the same woman?
[23:08] Ralph: i don’t think so…i am actually better than that really..cause i didn’t ruin anybody around me..
[23:08] Ralph: ya
[23:09] Mikey: okay, so you’ve ruined 3 lives and not 4
[23:09] Ralph: your quite an idiot just like the guys on wht
[23:09] Ralph: seriously
[23:09] Mikey: well, i don’t know, aren’t both of your kids in foster homes?
[23:09] Ralph: no
[23:09] Mikey: that’s what you told me last time.
[23:10] Ralph: only one is in a foster home
[23:10] Mikey: how are you supporting these people?
[23:10] Ralph: i already told you a bit back
[23:10] Mikey: refresh my memory
[23:11] Ralph: disability..
[23:11] Mikey: how is your disability supporting children?
[23:11] Ralph: the only thing we have to pay is diapers..wic takes care of the rest
[23:12] Mikey: okay, so you have the state supporting the children you created.
[23:12] Ralph: pretty much and alot of people do it
[23:13] Mikey: Did you impregnate this woman on purpose?
[23:13] Ralph: ya
[23:13] Mikey: that’s great.
[23:13] Ralph: you can say whatever you like
[23:13] Ralph: i am not a fucking nobody or whaterver like wht says
[23:14] Mikey: well you dont’ seem to have a job, and you’re living with your parents at what.. 25?
[23:14] Ralph: sorry..i live somewhere else
[23:14] Mikey: oh, where do you live?
[23:14] Ralph: not saying
[23:14] Mikey: because you’re ashamed.
[23:14] Ralph: because you’ll tattle tell
[23:15] Mikey: I didn’t really care when you scammed all of those webhosting people, but i think the way you’ve used society is suicide worthy
[23:16] Ralph: you’ll think scammed…when you know the real truth
[23:16] Mikey: i just think you’re just a sociopath who has no empathy for anyone else.
[23:17] Mikey: you’re never going to victimize me, because i’m much smarter than you.
[23:17] Ralph: ok whatever
[23:18] Ralph: i guess i must of been smart of enough to hide my shit from wht and everybody…cause nothing happened and nothing bad has happened recently in my life
[23:18] Ralph: i knew a misunderstanding was going to happen
[23:18] Ralph: i am not that stupid
[23:20] Mikey: You are that stupid.
[23:20] Ralph: please back your claim up would ya?
[23:20] Mikey: Unless you’re just lying about this to try and troll me.
[23:20] Ralph: not lying
[23:20] Mikey: then you are an idiot.
[23:21] Ralph: how is telling everybody what happened with my server being a fool?
[23:21] Mikey: and you’re an even bigger idiot for not realizing that those facts make you an idiot.
[23:21] Mikey: You’re an idiot for knocking up that woman twice with no source of income.
[23:21] Ralph: your a fucking jew
[23:21] Mikey: actually i’m an atheist, and now you’ve compounded your idiocy by being a racist.
[23:22] Ralph: lol
[23:22] Ralph: your really fucking funny
[23:22] Ralph: ass wipe
[23:22] Ralph: your blocked too
[23:22] *** “Ralph” signed off at Tue Dec 30 23:22:28 2008.

lol

i’ll write however the hell i want, about anything i want, and nothing you say or do will change it.

Sunday wasn’t a bad day. I haven’t had a good sunday in a long time, there always seems to be some stressing force surrounding my aura, but sunday I just forced myself to stop thinking about everything that’d been bothering me, and somehow it worked.

The night before, i went to bed at about 6am, and woke back up at noon. I got some maki and a smoothie for lunch, talked with the venezuelan roomie for a little while, and we discussed how his bed broke in half while he was “sleeping”. Then I went back to my room, and listened to the pavement album that I downloaded a few days earlier. This is probably my favorite album of the year, the album is 2 cds long, and just about every song is extraordinarily pleasant.

While listening to pavement I laid in bed. I was a little bit lonely, but I should be getting a little company here pretty soon.

I’ve been talking with a couple of women who have told me they are in polyamorous relationships. People of this variety often concern me, because I’m never aware of the legitimacy of their claim on the front of their significant other. I would like to believe that this is 2008, and that there are all types of relationships, and people are much more open minded than they once were. I just don’t want to be a home wrecker.

Well, one woman is coming to visit from Champaign, IL this weekend, and I’m not sure about the other. They are both beautiful, interesting people, and that’s the only reason why I’m continuing to talk with them. My standards are a little more loose when chatting with fellow single people, but I keep a small group when talking with the already ‘committed’ folks.

This year I get to work christmas eve, christmas day, new years eve, and new years day. The schedule had me coming back monday night at 9pm, and working until friday morning. Then I’m out for 4 days, come back with 2 days left in the year, and I’m also in for the first two days of the year. Man that’s not fair.

I haven’t ever spent a new years ever with another person. Last year I walked most of the night. The year before that I was alone in my parents home, same for several years before that. I never had any friends in oxford, i had maybe one friend last year, but she was out with her friends.

I’m trying to convince myself that all of this is ok. That there’s a perfectly acceptable answer for why i spend so much time alone. It’s all just fucking me mentally as the years go by.

here’s a good song you can listen to

Bye!